I haven't posted on here in a long-ass while. My last post was back in January.
I'm still proofreading. Still how I make the most online. I now make enough to cover my rent (which is low) and most of my bills. It's a struggle, however.
It's never really been about how much I can or haven't made online, but about my relationship with myself. My struggle with money has been a reflection of that, as other areas of my life have been.
And that's why, over the years I've been making money online, I've never made it – never made enough to fully support myself. This has also been the case offline too.
As I go into 2019, I want to leave that old unhealthy fearful long-term narrative behind – but first, I must look at it, really look at it, and listen to what it's really saying, then label it for the lie it is and move on.
I've been living a lie, basically – a lie I believed in and fed for many years – a lie that's actually not real, but has relied on my belief in it for it to exist.
I don't know where this blog is going. It might turn into a journal-type thing as I navigate my way through myself towards a healed/healthier relationship with money. I'm open to just going with the flow (personal posts, moneymaking posts, occasional reviews, etc.). It is my blog, after all.
I might even change the name of the blog if it feels like it no longer fits. I have a few months before the domain's up for renewal, so we'll see.
In the meantime, here's to staring monsters in the face (long enough to see that perhaps they don't even fucking exist).