I hate to admit it or even contemplate the idea, but I’m seriously considering going back to a 9-5 (or even a part-time job).
I don’t, for one second, regret quitting my desk job in November. If given the chance, I’d do it again. And I will do it again.
And again and again.
However, my bills are piling up to the point where I can’t ignore them anymore. I’ve buried my big old head in the sand long enough and feel I need to pull my sleeves up and do something about it NOW – and getting an admin/desk/whatever job is the quickest solution for me right now.
I have every confidence that I’ll get to where I want to be in terms of making more money online. It’s just not gonna be today. This month.
People owe me money, I might be running another workshop at the end of the month, I’m in negotiations with a regular online client of mine for more work, and I’ve recently picked up a new client (though I’m not 100% sure about him, to be honest). But these are all things I’M WAITING ON. And I can’t wait any longer. I have to go do something that’s within my power to do instead of waiting for them to deliver.
It’s not just about them, though. I know what role I have to play in where I currently find myself. I am my own best/worst teacher/student after all.
I’m not gonna work online for pennies in an effort to keep my head above water because not only will it undermine what I’m worth, but it won’t keep my head above water, actually. So, if it means having to go back to a 9-5 in the meantime (much as I really don’t want to and I’m struggling with the idea), then so be it.
Unless some miracle occurs in the coming week (like the tooth fairy putting a serious stash of cash under my spit-stained pillow), then Big Mama’s gonna have to don her rat-race suit once again.
Anyway, that’s that.
Have a nice week, all.