I’ve been making money online since 2007 and have found the experience fascinating, exciting, and at times, frustrating (actually, more times than I care to mention).
The most I’ve ever made online in one month was just under $800 (Oct 2008). The least, under $20 (Jan 2010).
I don’t wish to go back to my highest-earning month if it means I’d be doing something I don’t really enjoy. On the other hand, I don’t wanna go back to a 20-dollar month either.
My ideal scenario is to marry interest/passion/creativity with a comfortable amount of online income (this is a balance I’d like to achieve offline too).
To me, the internet represents freedom and an endless ream of possibilities.
However, I’ve created a ceiling for myself.
I feel that, by now, I should have achieved more than I actually have.
When I see how much some people make online, how well they’re doing, I’m happy for them (and somewhat envious. I ain’t gonna lie!), but I also feel annoyed at myself because it reminds me that I should be doing better than I am.
On the one hand, I have this self-created ceiling. But on the other hand, I can’t shake off this dogged dream I have of making a comfortable living online (actually, I wanna go a bit beyond that, but ‘comfortable’ is a good start).
I’m stuck between having a dream and not believing in it.
It’s not that I can’t make it; it’s that I don’t believe I can.
And that’s the truth.
And it’s a truth I can apply to pretty much most areas of my life.