Making Money Online: the Dream That Won’t Leave Me Alone…

I’ve been making money online since 2007 and have found the experience fascinating, exciting, and at times, frustrating (actually, more times than I care to mention).

The most I’ve ever made online in one month was just under $800 (Oct 2008). The least, under $20 (Jan 2010).

I don’t wish to go back to my highest-earning month if it means I’d be doing something I don’t really enjoy. On the other hand, I don’t wanna go back to a 20-dollar month either.

My ideal scenario is to marry interest/passion/creativity with a comfortable amount of online income (this is a balance I’d like to achieve offline too).

To me, the internet represents freedom and an endless ream of possibilities.

However, I’ve created a ceiling for myself.

I feel that, by now, I should have achieved more than I actually have.

When I see how much some people make online, how well they’re doing, I’m happy for them (and somewhat envious. I ain’t gonna lie!), but I also feel annoyed at myself because it reminds me that I should be doing better than I am.

On the one hand, I have this self-created ceiling. But on the other hand, I can’t shake off this dogged dream I have of making a comfortable living online (actually, I wanna go a bit beyond that, but ‘comfortable’ is a good start).

I’m stuck between having a dream and not believing in it.

It’s not that I can’t make it; it’s that I don’t believe I can.

And that’s the truth.

And it’s a truth I can apply to pretty much most areas of my life.

Ebele.

6 comments

  1. Michelle Adams

    Although I once upon-a-time thought that if you believed something enough you could make it happen but I don’t subscribe to that 100% any more.

    You can believe you can or you can believe you can’t, either way it doesn’t matter. What matters is relevant action to achieve your goals. No matter how much I believe that writing post after post on one of my blogs ‘won’t do much good’, it actually is doing good and I can’t stop it doing good now even if I tried. Google love the content and I didn’t believe they would.

    So forget about what you ‘think’ you can or can’t do and just move into a ‘just do it’ mindset even in the face of thoughts that chatter away negative bits and bobs about how ‘mama ain’t gonna make it.

    I know ‘The Secret’ et al tell us that with belief comes action comes results…but from my experience, even in some of my most negative views of what I could(n’t) achieve, I still took action and that’s what got me results; not whether I believed that action would ‘work’ out or not. There are laws for everything…what goes up must come down blah blah. You know the actions that will get you the results.

    All that being said, it sure is more fun when you’re backing yourself in! Give yourself a break and know that no matter what the ego says, it can’t stop you achieving if you just keep moving forward/taking action.

    That’s my 3 cents. 😉

  2. B's Mama :-)

    Your voice is authentic. Hence you are endearing, interesting, appealing and funny. That is why you have repeat visitors!

    Sometimes we comment ‘openly’, sometimes we don’t. We support you – full stop. Truly.

    Go deeper…your treasure awaits. Excavate the precious gems, within. 🙂

  3. ebele

    Michelle,

    I hear what you’re saying. And I thank you for explaining your slant on it.

    My problem is that I let the negative self-talk disable me. For some people, fear propels them into taking action. It’s the opposite for me; I freeze, hide, go comatose.

  4. Ruth - Web Career Girl

    I completely understand where you’re coming from. This game is SO frustrating at times, and yet we also get so much happiness out of really small sales etc just because we know we did it all by ourself. I also feel like I should have come much further by now, but I’ve been learning all along the way even if I could be doing better. We’ve just got to do what it takes to make it happen – and if we do the work I am sure it will!

  5. ebele

    Hi Ruth,

    Thanks for your comment.

    Every dip and challenge is a lesson. I’ll probably bounce back in my head in time.

    I hear you on the little triumphs! I’m looking forward to my first Amazon sale via Hubpages. And when that comes, it’ll be an energy boost.

    I hope you have a lovely lovely Xmas 🙂

    Take care…

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