When I first set up this blog, I used aliases (2ThePoint, Big Momma) for a couple of reasons:
– it allowed me to tap into a different side of me
– I felt the anonymity gave me a lot more freedom
– I could be whoever I wanted to be without it getting back to the people who knew me
I guess I wanted to separate the me that some people knew from the me that’s fascinated with the whole MMO shebang. I didn’t think they’d understand my interest in it. In my mind, I imagined that once they found out, their view of me would make me break out in hives of awkwardness and embarrassment. It mattered what they thought (or what I think they’d think) and I just thought their view of me would be laced with confusion and disapproval as they’d have a problem tallying up who they think I am with who I actually am.
But now, it doesn’t matter – nowhere near as much as it used to, anyway. I’m still a tad self-conscious but I guess it’ll fade in time. And if it doesn’t, then I’ll cross that Lego bridge when I get to it.
I’ll never stop using aliases in some other shape or form on some other blog or offline project as I believe they definitely serve a purpose. However, for this blog, I am… Ebele.
The online world, MMO, blogging and all the drama and excitement that comes with it…has become a big part of who I am.
My name is (what?) …my name is (who?) …my name’s…fikki fikki… E-be-le.